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[21 Dec 2005|12:23am] |
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sometimes i feel like i copuld just scream. you know what friends are just betrayers. you help them, you carre for them and then they try to own you or stab you in the back. they do not return a nd of the goodness that you have shown them. You bleed your heart out to them and accept them for who they are and then feel the pain when they can't accept you. but he strangest thing is... i will still help them. good trait or bad, i do not know. whatever it is, i can't help it. that's just me. the helper, the matyr. God help me to forgive them. I blame them and i blame myself for their betryals. What do you do , how do you help others when your own pain is drowning out everything you feel and cuts(self inflicted or not) and bruises do not matter. What do you do? forgive and live or just die in your pain? and if you chose to forgive how do you forget?
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